Worry, worry, worry!

Sometimes I hear those words running through my head. I worry about what I will do tomorrow, what I did today, what I said or didn't say, what I will wear, what my son will wear, what we will eat for dinner, what do people think about me, am I a good wife, a good mom, a good friend. I could really go on and on and on. Sometimes I even hear the song lyrics running through my head : "worry, worry, worry, worry, worry. Worry just won't seem to leave my mind alone". UGH....what is it with all this worry? Even as I do it, I know better.
Last week I was worrying about clothes for Isaiah. No reason really. I was just thinking that he was growing mighty fast and the season (or what season we have in FL) was beginning to change and he really needed some clothes. Most everything he has is summery and sized 6-12 months. I knew he was going to need some 18 month clothes SOON! How are we going to pay for this? WORRY WORRY WORRY!
I am so rotten. We were so blessed and so well taken care for an entire year. I can honestly say I haven't purchased Isaiah more than a handful of outfits since he was born thanks to the amazing people in our lives. But, the devil jumped in and I became a worry wart. THREE TIMES last week God gently spoke to me and THREE TIMES he let me hear this Bible verse. Matthew 6: "25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
I MEAN REALLY!!! Hello Jenny....are you listening? I know this verse is so much deeper and has so much more meaning than literally just clothes, but it was really what He wanted me to hear. I should have known better! What a petty and absurd thing to worry about.
After some quiet whispers from God that I apparently ignored He sent a loud knock to my door. LITERALLY! The mailman came knocking on my door with a GIANT box. Bet you can't guess what was in the box! hahaha....more clothes than I could have dreamt for. No they weren't brand new. Hand me downs actually. But all in good shape and all just what Isaiah needs to get by (and SO much more).
We are supposed to live life showing Christ's love to others. To be the hands and feet to others in this dark and broken world. To love as Christ loved, forgive as God has forgiven and disciple to the nations. That is exactly what Ashley did for me. She rounded up Cole's old clothes, packaged them up and sent them my way so that I had one less thing to worry about. It didn't cost her anything (except maybe a shipping fee) but it was priceless to me. God knows the desires of your heart, he listens and loves like no one else.
Thanks, God, for whacking me upside the head and letting me see you work in a real and tangible way.
this weeks goal: DON'T WORRY ABOUT THE SMALL STUFF
prayer: LORD, THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME AND ALWAYS TAKING CARE OF ME. HELP ME TO BE A BETTER DAUGHTER TO YOU AND SHARE YOUR LIGHT IN THIS WORLD. THANK YOU FOR PURSUING ME WHOLE HEARTEDLY AND ALWAYS SPEAKING THE TRUTH TO ME.
song: "Voice of Truth" by Casting Crowns